Don't take it personal...
*big sigh*
I wish people could be more honest with me...come right out and say what they are feeling rather than paying lip service and saying whatever they think I want to hear. All that ends up doing is making both people unhappy eventually when the truth comes out (and it always DOES come out). I am disappointed. I have a right to be disappointed, I feel like I've been in a pretend world for several years. How am I ever to know what is real and what is just said for my benefit? Now I am afraid I will be watching and weighing every word I hear, sifting each sentence looking for the 'real' truth as opposed to what i think they are saying just to please me. Kind of takes the fun and joy out of everything. The joy has been pretty much removed. Yes, I am disappointed, and yes I am taking it personally.
I guess I will go on with what I plan to do and live my life according to MY plans. What will be will be, and the end result will be whatever anyone else makes of it.
OOOOOOOOOListen!
I wish people could be more honest with me...come right out and say what they are feeling rather than paying lip service and saying whatever they think I want to hear. All that ends up doing is making both people unhappy eventually when the truth comes out (and it always DOES come out). I am disappointed. I have a right to be disappointed, I feel like I've been in a pretend world for several years. How am I ever to know what is real and what is just said for my benefit? Now I am afraid I will be watching and weighing every word I hear, sifting each sentence looking for the 'real' truth as opposed to what i think they are saying just to please me. Kind of takes the fun and joy out of everything. The joy has been pretty much removed. Yes, I am disappointed, and yes I am taking it personally.
I guess I will go on with what I plan to do and live my life according to MY plans. What will be will be, and the end result will be whatever anyone else makes of it.
OOOOOOOOOListen!
