Too Much Potential?
Potential - such a big word for an entire future. I am faced with the thought that I now possess a horse (Corky) wit so much putential, she is almost too good for me. he really deserves to belong to someone with a lot more money and time available to devote to taking her to the top. She is the first horse I have owned that has the capability or the potential of getting to the top. How scary is that? Sadly, I am limited by many things, not the least of which is finances. I am also limited to time, and to what my heart says. Is it really right for me to be willing to push her hard this summer in the hopes of realizing my own ambition? Is it in her best interest? I think as long as I keep her health and mind as my top priorities, I can't go wrong, right? Too bad the bank account also screams a resounding 'NO!' to the question.
I guess I will ride this week and make a decision as to what my plan will be for Corky this summer. Do we aim for the starts and try to realize the potential? Do we assume that it is unattainable and don't even try? Do we stay fiscally responsible and say no? Or do we go for it,...throw hearts and souls on the line for a dream? Stay tuned....
I'm not done!
Hey, this entry isn't done yet...what about MY potential? At age 38, how much 'potential' do you think I can possess? I wonder, do I still have potential for new and big things, or has my potential been tapped out a long time ago? What is around the corner for me - do I have unexplored talents that I need to discover, or is this all that I am? If this is all that I am, I am not sure I am completely satisfied. I want more...I want to be more.
I want to improve the talents I already possess - I want to ride better, paint better, play better, direct better, teach better, love better, look better.
I also weant to be things that I am not right now - I want to be confident. i want to be completely self-assured. I want to be completely self-sufficient so that no matter what happens I can make it on my own. I want to learn a trade that can make me some serious money. I want to be brave enough to make a big life or career change someday. I want to be a neater, more organized person (yeah, like THAT will happen!). I want to be someone without any regrets.
No regrets..that goes back to my original dilemma - Corky and her potential. Whatever decision I make, I want to make it with zero regrets...I want it to be the right decision. Time to start thinking...I'll do that after I ride today
