Alone again....
I am sitting here alone. The city is exploding with fireworks, and it seems everyone in the entire city is sitting with loved ones watching the display. I am sitting here in my house, alone, in silence. Sometimes I do feel lonely. Funny, but often I feel lonely when the house is full of people. I have this feeling of being invisible, or of being a negative force.
I sit here tonight, and I am really melancholy. I've been making fun of myself all evening. What is my problem? What is the reason for these low feelings? I need to get a life! Oh yeah, I do have a life, but it seems that it isn't here right now. Maybe it's on sabbatical.
I am wondering if there is someone out there, anyone in this vast universe that might be thinking of me right now. Maybe an old friend, who happens to let my name cross their mind? Maybe a family member? Maybe someone loves me and is missing me right now? I highly doubt it, but it's an interesting throught.
My solution to all this drama is to go out in the backyard. there's someone out there that no matter WHAT the mood, the weather, or what stupid things I may have done, she is always happy to see me...overjoyed, in fact!
