Squareville
I think I travelled in a square again...must have missed an alternate turn somewhere along the way.
Today I feel beat down. Squashed. Kind of like a hammer slammed me into the ground like a peg. I am frustrated, I am feeling rather hopeless. Hopeless - less hope, lack of hope. Yep, that's me. I am tired. Exhausted. Tired of being the culprit, the villian, the bad guy. I guess that is my role in life - I am non-good. How's that for a term? I am doing no good here. Accomplishing nothing, contributing nothing, basically all-around worthless.
I hate this damn blog. What a waste of time. I am not solving any great world problems, not even understanding my own.
I guess I am just tired. An entire night without sleep will do that to ya. I am tired, sick to my stomach, and feeling a decided lack of hope, lack of faith, and lack of belief. I don't even believe in myself anymore.
I wonder where the end is????
