Ok, the New Year's resolutions will come later.

Today I am saying goodbye to the BAD things that happened ion 2006, in hopes that they will not be present for 2007!

1. Goodbye HUGE vet bills! Everyone got in on the action this year - Pasta ($2800 surgery), Taylor (hock injections, coffin bone injections, etc.), and Corky (major colic episode). Here's hoping that 2007 brings only routine vaccinations from my vet!
2. Goodbye anger! No more anger between loved ones. No more fighting, trying to be right, and taking things ultra-personally. Let it go is my new mantra.
3. Goodbye weight! I have 15 pounds that need to go NOW! And yes, they WILL be gone.
4. Goodbye disorganization! I am working on this one, have been pretty much since birth! I'll get it one of these days.

Really, that's all I can think of. 2006 was a pretty good year. I had a very successful year with Taylor, and most importantly I had a LOT of fun! I accomplished my goal of banishing my 2003 Congress episode by making the finals this tyear and having a clean go. I am healthy, fairly strong, both trucks are running well, Trailer roof hasn't leaked since March, and I am paying all my bills on time. I am married to a gorgeous, wonderful guy, and although we don't live in our dream house, we are warm and comfortable and have all the necessities.

Now, on to 2007!

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...March LOL! It's 50 degrees and raining. Weird weather for Christmas Eve-Eve. Hey, I am not complaining. Who wants a white Chrismas? I'd rather have a white first day of back to school...can we say D-E-L-A-Y?

It's almost time for those New Years' resolutios. I did really well with mine from last year. NOT!

Here were my resolutions for 2006:

1. Less fighting, more loving! Give up the battles, rather than trying to prove my point I will just let the small battles go...worry only about the important ones. Always remember "This too shall pass". that will be my internal motto Well, I did a lot of repeating to myself 'This too, shall pass', but I am not sure how well to heart I took it. Battles increased rather than decreased. I just have a hard time playing the doormat role.
2. Be happier, even when I am not! Seriously - smile more, even pretend to be happy no matter what my mood...take jokes for what they are and not interpret anything insulting or offensive in them. Sometimes you can pretend yourself into a better mood. I think I did better with this one. I smiled a lot through my frustration.
3. When in doubt, shaddup! Stop making your case. Stop debating, stop voicing unasked-for opinions. Just shaddup already! OK, I really tried. Really I did. But I gave up because I was getting nowehere. This will be a goal for 2007.
4. Look for more good than bad. Stop this pessimistic attitude that has infiltered my life and go back to the happy, sunshiney, optimistic me! Battle the negativity that surrounds me every day with some positive comments and thoughts (either out loud or kept to myself). Keep that PLUS attitude. Stop looking for the bad!!! Yes, I did do this. I counted my blessings more often than not. But I can still do more.
5. Keep track of my daily household chores for my own benefit and satisfaction. When I am faced with the disparaging comments about how I am doing nothing, I can look at my list in the privacy of my own computer and know deep down that  am OK, no matter what anyone says. this will be for my own private benefit, because my own self-esteem is far more important than making a point or winning arguments. I started a log, but then found it ridiculous. The powers that be never believe it anyways.
6. Be a more hands on person in the family. I will take a more active role and just be there as a positive influence...no negativity or discipline, just be there as a good force. Take more interest in everyone's activities. I tried, and hit wall after wall. What's a gal to do? I was there for everyone as mush as I can be, unfortunately no one really noticed or cared. Oh well, at least I tried.
7. Pray more! Count my blessings every night and thank God for each and every one of them. I do take them for granted way too much. Pray for the needs of others. take the time every night before I fall asleep to think of 5 other people and ptray for a specific need I think they have. I definitely still need to pray more.
8. When in doubt, write it out. No more shouting arguments,. Instead, write them down, e-mail or hand them over. No more bad language and disrespect towards others. I will show a lot more respect towards my husband and I will listen to what he has to say and I will not sweat the small stuff! Nope, did not do this, not at all...I am such a slackard!

OK, I am formulating my 2007 resolutions. Here's hoping I do better! I have so much room for improvement, it isn't even funny. Sometimes I wonder how people can even stand to live with me.

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I am so trapped...can't move in either direction without complete and total disaster befalling me. What to do, what to do?

Why do people have to pay for sins they haven't even committed yet? If that were God's rule, we'd all probably be living in hell right now. Heck, some of us are. Maybe that is punishment for a future crime we ae going to commit. If so, I hope I have fun doing it!!!

Somewhere in the far reaches of the globe there is someone...maybe even a couple people...who would value me for the person that I am right now. Not the person they want me to be, not the person they think I should be, not the person they think they want...just ME. You know ME - creative, fun, messy, spontaneous, out there grabbing life and living it, the goal-setter, a little weird, a little off-center. That's ME. Remember? Most of you have met ME. If you know ME long enough you will see all these sides to me. I am not perfect, I constantly screw up, and my best intentions are not 100%. I try hard, I plan, I do, and sometimes I do not achieve. But that's ME, love me or leave me. I am not a bad person. I honestly don't think I am. I can't figure out how someone could really think I am evil through and through, that my intentions are dishonest, and that even though no crime has been committed I am nefariously planning one as we speak. I just don't get it. It makes me very sad. Very depressed. How can I become a total stranger to myself for the sake of others? I may go mad! Heck, I think I am there already!

I will try to squeeze betweeen this rock and this hard place without losing too much skin.

Damn my tooth hurts.

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Well, i did it, finally broke down and had that cracked tooth fixed. It was pretty much as miserable as I had thought. I think I am more miserable today. I cannot even close my mouth - the pain from my top tooth even touching the fixed tooth sends me over the moon. It was cracked in 3 different places. The oral surgeon repaired the cracks (with an evil-smelling epoxy) and did a root canal. Lovely way to spend $1100...and I get to go back in 3 weeks for a crown that will cost even MORE. I can think of a million other things I'd like to spend $2000+ on.

The surgeon asked me if I had a lot of stress in my life (laugh laugh laugh!). He said he has seen cracks like this before, and it comes from clenching your jaw while you sleep. You can put 4 times as much pressure on your teeth while you sleep than you are physically able to when awake. Interesting little tidbit...tells me that I really need to start wearing my mouth guard at night every night! Yuck, I have having that big chunk of plastic in my mouth all night. But, it's better than going through this pain, I guess!

So, I tried to eat some pretzels today...bad idea. I'd kill of a bowl of soup but I am stuck at school until after the basketball game. Oh well, I need a diet, right?

Yesterday was a bad day, of course any day that contains ORAL SURGERY is a bad day! Corky tried to eat my cell phone at the barn...before I realized it she had torn the cover off and crammed dirt into every nook and cranny of my phone. Now it's making weird noises and the power is draining. I hope she enjoyed that little chew toy! Taylor isn't blameless, she stoof by and watched. She should have played her responsible adult roll and either stopped Corky from damaging my phone or at least alerted (tattled) me! Typical kids LOL!

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Slow To Anger

That's my new theme, my new motto. It is something I have decided to work at (Lord knows I need to!).

Jan, just let it go! This too shall pass, yada yada. Laugh it off. Shrug it off. Let it roll of your back. Don't take it personally.

My New Year's Resolution (and the new year starts today, as it does every day!) is to curm the hurt feelings and anger, to let it go, to be slower to anger...put a lid on it.

Can I do it? Am I capabale? Maybe by doing so I can set an example to everyone else.

RELAX

Less anger=less stress.

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Life is short (get it?). Lately this has been on my mind a lot. Life is sooooo short, and can end at any given moment. It makes me nervous, makes me a bit tense to know that in an instant my wonderful life can be shattered by the death of someone. How does one prepare for a death? Can you really truely prepare, or will it always come as a big surprise?

It wakes you realize that these petty arguments over NOTHING are such a waste of precious time. Why spend any time being unhappy? There are so many little ways you can increase the happiness portion in your life. Here are my ways:

• I can spend more time at the barn doing what I enjoy. Take the time to ride, to groom, to just be with my horses, and not care what anyone else thinks. This is something that makes me happy, these are my children whom I can be proud of. I am allowed that!
• Make time to work out. I always feel SO good after my workouts. I need to do them more often. I experience alomst a euphoric feeling when I am done. Gotta love that!
• Take more baths. Seruously.....not because I stink (I do shower every day, dummy!). Baths are relaxing and rejuvenating to me. They also make me feel younger for some reason.
• MOVE, dance, move to the music, don't be afraid to be more physical.
• Count to 40 before responding in anger. Yes, FORTY. 10 is far too short, and 50 is long enough to make you forget what to do. THINK before speaking, and investigate all possible repercussions before speaking out. In the long run this will make life so much smoother. Ugh, that's a hard one!
• Take more photos!
• Watch old videos more often to remind myself where I came from and how far I've come.
• Hug more often...and hug stronger. Release the fear, just get rid of t! Stomp it to the ground.

What if I die tomorrow? Yikes, I need to update my will (which is saved on my computer, by the way).

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I experienced some good laughter tonight. It was sorely needed. Sometimes you just have to set down your worries and stresses and just be the foll, enjoy yourself and your company.

Sometimes I have to work at laughter. But what job is more fun?

I think I need to laugh more in my daily life. I am taking things way too seriously lately. That does me no good other than to add stress and make me upset. Stop being so serious! What will be, will be. What's that latin phrase - Que Sera, sera? Something like that.

Laugh, dammit!

I need to look at more things with humor. When something (or someone) is getting me down, putting me down, trying to negate me and make me feel zeroed, I need to laugh it off. Smile, laugh at how silly it all is in the grand scheme of things, and walk on.

Don't like what I am doing? ant to grind me into the ground? You'll have to do it in between my chuckles.

From this moment on I am going to work on my laughter and my smiles. I will laugh off the pettiness, the anger, and the righteous indignation whcih is funny in it's own right).

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