Between a rock and a hard place
I am so trapped...can't move in either direction without complete and total disaster befalling me. What to do, what to do?
Why do people have to pay for sins they haven't even committed yet? If that were God's rule, we'd all probably be living in hell right now. Heck, some of us are. Maybe that is punishment for a future crime we ae going to commit. If so, I hope I have fun doing it!!!
Somewhere in the far reaches of the globe there is someone...maybe even a couple people...who would value me for the person that I am right now. Not the person they want me to be, not the person they think I should be, not the person they think they want...just ME. You know ME - creative, fun, messy, spontaneous, out there grabbing life and living it, the goal-setter, a little weird, a little off-center. That's ME. Remember? Most of you have met ME. If you know ME long enough you will see all these sides to me. I am not perfect, I constantly screw up, and my best intentions are not 100%. I try hard, I plan, I do, and sometimes I do not achieve. But that's ME, love me or leave me. I am not a bad person. I honestly don't think I am. I can't figure out how someone could really think I am evil through and through, that my intentions are dishonest, and that even though no crime has been committed I am nefariously planning one as we speak. I just don't get it. It makes me very sad. Very depressed. How can I become a total stranger to myself for the sake of others? I may go mad! Heck, I think I am there already!
I will try to squeeze betweeen this rock and this hard place without losing too much skin.
Damn my tooth hurts.
