Anger Management
Why is it that some people make a hobby out of being angry? I really think it must give some sort of rush or good feelings to feel righteous anger towards someone else. Heaven knows I've never felt it! One of my resolutions for the new year is to be angry less, to let things slide, let them blow over, and to not take things so personally. I am trying! Dontcha wish you could make new year's resolutions for other people - resolutions you feel they need to make but probably won't?
Sometimes I feel my life is just a series of conflicts. I find myself walking on eggshells...trying desparately not to do wrong or screw up in the smallest way. I try to make plans and have enjoyable moments, but then something always happens where I don't do something precisely right (in someone else's eyes) and then I am left in the cold, shut out, and talked down. It makes me want to hibernate from these situations...totally avoid them! It's not very healthy to live my life trying to avoid moments where I could possibly be imperfect.
Well, all I can do is what I can do - I can only control myself and my own reactions. What will be will be....but obviously it's not going to be what I want it to be. What a shame. I really feel I have so much to give, if only I wasn't so afraid of stepping a foot wrong and blowing it.
