Habitual Behaviors
Why is it so easy to start new bad habits than it is to start good habits? I don't get it. God really made the workings of our minds a bit backwards. I need to have a talk with him about this. For instance, it is totally easy for me to get into the bad habit of not putting my dishes away, or not taking my dirty clothes downstairs, or throwing empty Diet Pepsi bottles in the bed of my truck. Why then is is so difficult to get into the habit of washing my dishes immediately, of taking my clothes downstairs, of putting my DP bottles in the trash? Weird.
I sat down here intending on listing my bad habits, but decided it would be better to keep these things to myself for now. I think the overall number one bad habit that seems to affect my daily life is just plain forgetfulness, or absentmindedness. I do things (or don't do things) not necessarily out of habit or in a consciously bad way, but generally because my mind gets scattered and I forget, or don't even think about it. I wake up in the morning and my mind is whirling and spinning thinking about all the million things I need to prepare for and what i need to do, and I don't think about what my hands are doing at that moment. Or I get started doing something, get distracted (which happens very easily for me!) and I go off and attend to the distraction, leaving things hanging where I was working originally. It's not a conscious decision to leave things out or not do things correctly, but that is the way I am wired. I think a lot of epople who aren't wired that way have a hard time understanding what it's like. I get just as frustrated with myself as everyone else! Dang it, I FULLY INTEND on doing things right, but it seems no matter how good my intentions are and how hard I try, I still end up screwing up about 60% of the time. Those odds aren't good.
I guess that's why I tend to cause a great annoyance factor in those who spend a lot of time with me. I guess some people shouldn probably just live alone. Either that, or they should live with other imperfect people who also make lots of mistakes...because no one is as understanding as those who share the same afflictions!
Either that, or I need to become rich enough to hire my own personal secretary to take care of the little details that escape me!!!
