Life goes on....
I feel a little better today. I am faced with the reality that life does go on, whether or not you are ready for it to do so. I went out to the barn today to spend quality time with 2 of my horses...one of which won't be mine within the next day or so. Fruit was out in the pasture with a buddy and she looked her normal self again. Amazing how I am still grieving, still brought to tears every time I think of that little body on the ground, and she is standing out in the pasture grazing without a care in the world. God made animals much more self-sufficient than humans.
What is hardest is knowing that Fruit will now belong to my good friend. I dread next spring, when she has that 'Joe' baby and it will belong to someone else...that should be MY baby out there! It's just not fair. All the time, effort, and money I spent to get my last baby out of her and someone else is going to reap the benefits. It hurts a lot. But, life goes on...
I shouldn't be so bitter. My life has been good, and I have been SO lucky thus far. What blessings I have! I have Taylor, who is drop-dead gorgeous and successful, and I have Corky, who loves me and is showing signs of being even more successful than Taylor! Why am I so selfish to want another one? I am counting my blessings, one-two. Those are some huge blessings, and I won't ever forget that.
