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May 31, 2006

Fruit Cocktail - Rest In Peace

I just received word tonight that Fruit passed way this evening at the vet hospital from a ruptured small intestine. Words cannot describe what i am feeling right now, to lose the baby and then Fruit in one month. Fruit technically belonged to my friend, since I had sold her last month, but in my heart she is still mine. My hear breaks again...

Fruit Cocktail, enjoying the pasture

 

Feeling good, Fruit in her prime

 

Beautiful, floating, flat trot. Fruit passed this on to all of her babies.

 

Fruit and her last baby 'Corky' in 2004.

FRUIT COCKTAIL

1998-2006

MUSE-ic

I am sitting here listening to the CD recording of Children of Sanchez as recorded by our jazz group, with Chris Vadala and myself playing the head. It is so cool, I just liove this song, and I love the fact that I played it and did well. It leaves me with a good feeling, and heaven knows I need a few of those lately. I forget so often to thank God for my talent. What would I be without it? I'd be nothing, absolutely nothing. Music controls the way I walk, it moves every step I take. It has been a focus of my life since age 9. It has propelled me, moved me into worlds I hadn't planned on entering, and colored the way I look at things.

I was so naieve when I auditioned for college. I didn't even consider what I woudl do if I didn't get in to BGSU. Today I am amazed that I actually got in...I had virtually no training...the 'raw talent' sure applied to me (especially the raw part). I guess God had decided to push my life into that direction, and nothing deterred him from keeping me on that path.

Blind trust

What would you do if you found out omeone very close to you betrayed you? What if you found out someone very close to you has been disloyal, unfaithful, or had wronged you and hid that fact? Would you confront that person, knowing that you would destroy each other, or would you just stick your head in the sand and try to forget about it and hope it was just a fluke? Yuck, this sand tastes nasty!

What is your definition of faithful or loyal? I'd be interested in hearing it, because I am sure it is different from mine.

May 29, 2006

I hate printers, printers hate me!

$100 - that's what a new toner drum cost for my Okidata printer at work. I waited until it was absolutely necessary before ordering one. I install it, and NOTHING will print, the paper just gets jammed. I spent 2 hours with the owners' manual with NO luck. I ended up re-installing the OLD toner drum...it prints again but very faint.

So I decide to set up and install the new printer/scanner/copier I got from my band students this year. After hassling with it, I find out that it requires a special USB cord to hook it up...one of those odd-shaped cords that can only be ordered from the manufacturer. $40 later, I ordered one, I might get it in this millenium.

So I am home now, trying to get some work done. I purchase a one-time printing of music that I need for this upcoming year's percussion feature. I click on the print button, thinking it will give me options. NOPE, it just automatically sent it to my old printer that hasn't worked in almost a year now. Great...and although I try and try there is no way to send another print job without buying the music again.

I give up! I am just going to get a lot of large rocks and a sharp tool and just scribe everything I need to write down. Stinking computers!

May 22, 2006

Inspirational phrases!

I love love love those catchy, inspirational phrases that people come up with and toss around. Here is a group that i collected (borrowed) from a fun group of horse people (horse people are the 'funnest' group!):

  • Life is a journey not a destination
  • Well behaved women rarely make history (then I ought to be world-famous!)

  • Somewhere, something incredible is waiting to be known

  •  And in the end, its not the life in your years that count, its the years in your life (I agree wholeheartedly)

  • Moving fast is not the same as going somewhere (How I wish I could remember this!)

  • Some people drink from the fountain of knowledge, others just gargle

  • The opposite of bravery is not cowardice but conformity

  • The hardest part of looking forward is learning not to look back (Easier said than done)

  • Obstacles are those frightful things you see when you take your eyes of your goal

  • You miss 100% of the shots you don't take (Amen!!! Shoot for the top!)

  • 'We are all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars

  • It's not denial. I'm just selective about the reality I accept

  • Only the curious have something to find

  • You've got to make noise to be heard (LOL can you hear me???)

  • Excellence is never an accident

  • A wise man will make more opportunities than he finds

  • It is not enough to have a good mind. The main thing is to use it well (First I need to find mine!)

  • Speak when you are angry--and you will make the best speech you'll ever regret

  • A positive attitude may not solve all your problems, but it will annoy enough people to make it worth the effort.

  • Courage is being scared to death and saddling up anyway

  • Don't be afraid your life will end; be afraid that it will never begin

  • You have to have a dream to make a dream come true

  • Decisions are made by those who show up

  • Yesterday is history,
    Tomorrow is a mystery,
    and Today is a gift.
    That's why it's called the "present

  • The guy at the top didn't just FALL there

  • It's nice to be important, but more important to be nice Being nice is SO hard, sometimes!)

  • If you continue to do what you've always done, you will continue to get what you've always gotten

  • Winning is never FINAL and Losing is never FATAL (Yep, see CONGRESS 2003)

  • You have the privilege of a lifetime of being who you are

  • Only those who risk going to far can possibly find out how far they can go

  • Nobody who gave his best regretted it

  • Opportunity is missed by most people because it is dressed in overalls and looks like work

  • It's easy to make a buck, it's a lot tougher to make a difference (Actually I think it is tougher to make a buck these days)

  • I took the leap having faith I'd find a net, instead I learned to fly

  • Good judgment comes from experience, and a lot of that comes from bad judgment

  • People are like tea bags... you have to put them in hot water before you know how strong they are

  • You can't stop the waves, but you can learn to surf

  • To those whom much is given, much is required

  • Life is not measured in the breaths we take but what takes our breath away

  • Great minds discuss Ideas. Average minds discuss Events. Small minds discuss People

May 21, 2006

Barbaro

I watched the Preakness today. I was at a horse show yesterday when I heard the news that the race favorite (and my favorite!) broke a leg in the race and was taken to surgery. Watching the race, watching his ankle flop and hoof just hang there...reminded me so much of Tory.

Tory was my beloved thoroughbred broodmare and mother of Taylor. She broke her hind ankle on December 20, 2000 and had to be put to sleep. She died with her head in my lap. Her injury was very similar to Barbaro - shattered sesmoid and fetlock joint (ankle).

(photo of Tory with Taylor as a baby)

It breaks my heart just remembering this. So many horse tragedies this year! Watching this race reminded me of the other time I had a major favorite in a triple crown race, only to have him break down in the Belmost with a broken leg (Charismatic)

(Photo of Charismatic I took on a visit to Lane' End Farm in 2002)

 This makes me want to go hug my horses...the two I have left - Taylor and Corky. Horses are so fragile! What makes them beautiful also makes them breakable.

May 15, 2006

Taking for granted

The little things...

Interesting how we all take things for granted. 

  • Being able to walk to the fridge to get another Diet Pepsi
  • Super Wal-Mart will always have Rold Gold Pretzels in stock
  • There is always a pencil somewhere within walking distance of your desk
  • The Ranger (with 155,000 miles on it) will start every morning no matter how cold
  • My cell phone has enough charge to receive that all-important phone call
  • Everyone will be sickeningly sweet on the Survivor reunion show
  • The online casino spam mail will show up in my e-mail inbox daily no matter how many times I block the sender
  • Mom always wants to take my phone call, no matter what weird time of the day I call or that she might actually be doing something important!
  • Corky's stall always needs cleaning. Even when it is freshly cleaned, it still needs cleaning
  • It will rain as soon as I have the wheelbarrow full and ready to push out to the manure pile
  • All of my body parts work (oh how I wish!)

The biggest thing we take for granted is our health. Oh sure, we are thankful daily for the biggies - being able to walk/breathe/stand/think. But what about the smallies - the things you do more infrequently but take for granted anyways...the things that are vital to your life and relationships but you don't really give it a thought until it is gone. The abilities you possess for years, and then are suddenl;y taken from you for some unknown reason. The realization that your comfortable little life may disappear in a puff of smoke because of your newfound handicaps. What if life disappears?

Wow, I am getting morbid now...time to recharge! I wish this rain would stop. Yes, it is still reainin...every day, every single day, nonstop. The grass is 6 inches high, the basement is wet, Pasta is miserable in her doghouse, very large mushrooms are growing in my horse trailer. I think my brain is getting moldy from the rain.

May 12, 2006

A Product of Your Environment

I think we all are simply products of our own environment. We change and fluctuate like waves in the ocean depending on the tides, the wind, the weather, the atmosphere. Amazing how someone can spend time in a totally different place with different people and come back a changed person...if only temporarily. I suppose the inevitable part is that we all end up going back to our former, more natural selves. It just takes some people longer than others. Patience, my friend....patience! Good things come to those who wait...and make fewer waves.

This brings me back to the inevitable question - can people ever really change? I mean change, as in drastically change their basic personality...become a new person? The older I get, the less I believe true change is possible. I think surfaces can change, but the inner layers are pretty solid and it would take something major to break through and alter what is there. We are what we are...whether we like it or not! The trick is learning to like what we are...good and bad.  

So the $1,000,000 question is - do you like who/what you are? Do I like who/what I am? The hard part is answering that truthfully, since we spend the majority of our day seeing ourselves through everyone else's eyes. Stop considering what someone else thinks, and consider what is deep within yourself. Tricky, I know!

May 11, 2006

Rainrainrainrainrainrainrain

Today's weather: Rain

Tomorrow's weather: rain

This weekend: Rain

10 day forecast:

  1. Rain
  2. Rain
  3. More Rain
  4. Rainy
  5. Even more rain
  6. Rain rain
  7. Rain showers
  8. Thunderstorms
  9. Rain
  10. RAIN

How many different words can you come up with for rain?

  • Rain showers
  • deluge
  • Thunderstorms
  • downpour
  • Drizzle
  • sprinkle
  • mist
  • God's spit
  • gutter gusher
  • puddlemaker
  • soaker
  • Cuprunnethover
  • Stinkin' Rain
  • Pouring rain
  • The oceans are seeking Revenge

Ugh. This kind of weather makes you have to FORCE yourself to be cheerful. Not only is it rainy, but it is cold, and looks to stay that way for another week.

How sad is it that I spent an entire blog entry talking about the weather. Is my life that devoid of entertainment? Yep, I believe so!

 

 

May 09, 2006

I luv Spring, man! Spring...on two good legs

It was 75 degrees and sunny today. What more could one want out of life?

I planned on spending my evening at the barn riding Corky, but two new horses showed up at the barn and they were WILD. They had all the other horses in the barn upset (what a bunch of sheep!), and Corky was flipping out every time one of them would whinney, so I figured I enjoyed my life on two sound legs too much to risk it LOL!

Kevin is home today with an ice pack o his back, completely out of commission with back pain. There for the grace of God go I....I see that and I pray it will never be me. I know he is in severe pain, he is trying hard not to snap at people but you can see the strain on his face. What a stinky thing to happen - be laid up in bed with an injury on one of the nicest days of the year. I would DIE if I had major physical problems...if I don't get my daily horse fix or exercise I am a total crank (read: THIS MORNING!).

Luckily for Kevin, it is supposed to be rainy and gloomy the rest of the week, so he can work on healing and not feel bad on missing out on the good weather.

May 02, 2006

Mornings

1 It's amazing what I can accomplish in those 20 minutes before my alarm goes off that I wake up and lay in bed! I woke up this morning at 5:25am, alarm was set to go off at 5:45. In those 20 minutes, I planned out my grading procedures for the band project, set up my sopring concert in the gym, re-set the concert program, decided on my afternoon workout schedule, picked out my clothes for tomorrow, and decided when to get the laundry done. Amazing! I also ranted a little in my head about losing Fruit and her baby on the same week, Taylor's reaction to her spring vaccinations, worry over Corky's potential reaction to hers, then more worry because my vet has the vaccinations backordered for 2 months, worried over how to get to Caitlyn's concert tonight amongst working out and cleaning stalls, stressing over marching band details and music, and when am I going to get the laundry done?

After all that, it was actually a relief to wake up and start the day. Tongue out